One ofthe problems bothering me now, is the fact that i never really got over a few of my ex girlfriends.
In fact i'm talking to one now.... Wen.... Gosh how i loved her.... and talk abt a weird relationship we had... how much shit i had to go through, and in the end i broke up with her cause i couldn't take the shit anymore.... Yet somehow till now, there seemed to remain a little bit of hope that we could get back together.. despite the fact that she's still attached to Kel, whom i honestly feel doesn't deserve her... sigh..... Okay Wen, i know u're probably gonna read this, but no offence yeah, this is just how i really feel. Fact is, in some deep corner of my heart i never let go and i still love her.....
another one is Shao Bing, recent one. broke up like abt 3-4 months ago... wrote me a letter that hurt a lot.. that totally pointted out all my faults.. She totally saw through me.. saw who i am and how i am. She felt she wasn't ready for a relationship, i pushed, she gave in... i paid for it.. my heart got ripped to pieces when we finally called it quits... now everytime i see i her, i can't help but feel so much love for her..... unfortunately that's a hopeless case.. she'l probably never allow anything to hapen between us again. sigh.... i loved her a lot too......
Actually, these are the only 2 that i had sort of a real relationship with that i out in both heart and soul into trying to make it work.... unfortunately, some stuff happened and they both ended.. Thank God i'm still friends with them both... I'd rather die than let these 2 friendships die out....
The other girls i've dated or had a crush on... well, they never really held a firm hold on my heart. except for the ones that blossomed into beautiful friendships.
Daf's one of them, had a huge crush on her, and instead of avoiding me, she stayed with me and now i love her as much as my best friend..... goodness knows how many times she's stuck with me and pulled me through my tough times... Luv ya daf!
Oh well, i hope i'll be able to catch some shut eye tonight.....this is just one of the things i have to work out.....
blog ya tomrrow..
In fact i'm talking to one now.... Wen.... Gosh how i loved her.... and talk abt a weird relationship we had... how much shit i had to go through, and in the end i broke up with her cause i couldn't take the shit anymore.... Yet somehow till now, there seemed to remain a little bit of hope that we could get back together.. despite the fact that she's still attached to Kel, whom i honestly feel doesn't deserve her... sigh..... Okay Wen, i know u're probably gonna read this, but no offence yeah, this is just how i really feel. Fact is, in some deep corner of my heart i never let go and i still love her.....
another one is Shao Bing, recent one. broke up like abt 3-4 months ago... wrote me a letter that hurt a lot.. that totally pointted out all my faults.. She totally saw through me.. saw who i am and how i am. She felt she wasn't ready for a relationship, i pushed, she gave in... i paid for it.. my heart got ripped to pieces when we finally called it quits... now everytime i see i her, i can't help but feel so much love for her..... unfortunately that's a hopeless case.. she'l probably never allow anything to hapen between us again. sigh.... i loved her a lot too......
Actually, these are the only 2 that i had sort of a real relationship with that i out in both heart and soul into trying to make it work.... unfortunately, some stuff happened and they both ended.. Thank God i'm still friends with them both... I'd rather die than let these 2 friendships die out....
The other girls i've dated or had a crush on... well, they never really held a firm hold on my heart. except for the ones that blossomed into beautiful friendships.
Daf's one of them, had a huge crush on her, and instead of avoiding me, she stayed with me and now i love her as much as my best friend..... goodness knows how many times she's stuck with me and pulled me through my tough times... Luv ya daf!
Oh well, i hope i'll be able to catch some shut eye tonight.....this is just one of the things i have to work out.....
blog ya tomrrow..
posted by Marcus at 12:15 am
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