well, i'm back..still in my lab actually. its a 2 hour lab.. i'm bored, just finished my assignment, so decided to come on and maybe rant and rave a little, if u want to call it that. haha.....
I just found out a piece of good news, Michelle, the girl i'm going on date with later is at home on MC, so she can meet me earlier...
hmm.. depending on the time, i might skip my tutorial at 3 and go for the movie with her. so much more interesting..... haha
Sigh..... I haven't penned down my letter yet.. have no idea how to phrase what i want to say.....
CYF has given me so much friendship.. unfortunately as of late, somehow or other, the environment and tone of CYF has taken a turn for the worse, or at least to me.. cause i can't seem to fit in like i used to... Has CYF changed so much? is almost everyone turning into a hypocrite... mabe even me.. You have no idea how tough it is to love CYF people and never get anything back.. many a time i've been left with the thought of why i'm doing all this, i tell myself i love them, that's why i'm doing it, but after going so long without thanks, without being appreciated... its time to move on.. i've out grown the group i so love.. my place is with the choir, where i can do something i love so much, that is music and singing. The only other people that can relate to this are other leaders or ex leaders, as well as the CYF advisors. but what ever it is, my decision stands, i'm resigning. There are people in CYf that i love so much. Daf, Aileen, Amanda (the both of them), Jon, Boss... the list goes on man.. if not for CYF i wouldn't have met them... especially Aileen and Amanda cheong. Both i love so much. they've somehow or rather made a really big impact in my life even though i've only known them for abt 1 - 2 years... yeah.. They are both also really beautiful people. inside and out. I'll miss them, when i'm not around anymore.
I'll stil be popping by once in a while, so i hope to see them when i do. I would like our freindships to transcend CYF, but they have no time, Its the dreaded O level exams lah.. maybe after their exams i'll give them a call and ask them out.. haha.....
Anyway, its almost time to pack up and leave. Blog ya later.
I just found out a piece of good news, Michelle, the girl i'm going on date with later is at home on MC, so she can meet me earlier...
hmm.. depending on the time, i might skip my tutorial at 3 and go for the movie with her. so much more interesting..... haha
Sigh..... I haven't penned down my letter yet.. have no idea how to phrase what i want to say.....
CYF has given me so much friendship.. unfortunately as of late, somehow or other, the environment and tone of CYF has taken a turn for the worse, or at least to me.. cause i can't seem to fit in like i used to... Has CYF changed so much? is almost everyone turning into a hypocrite... mabe even me.. You have no idea how tough it is to love CYF people and never get anything back.. many a time i've been left with the thought of why i'm doing all this, i tell myself i love them, that's why i'm doing it, but after going so long without thanks, without being appreciated... its time to move on.. i've out grown the group i so love.. my place is with the choir, where i can do something i love so much, that is music and singing. The only other people that can relate to this are other leaders or ex leaders, as well as the CYF advisors. but what ever it is, my decision stands, i'm resigning. There are people in CYf that i love so much. Daf, Aileen, Amanda (the both of them), Jon, Boss... the list goes on man.. if not for CYF i wouldn't have met them... especially Aileen and Amanda cheong. Both i love so much. they've somehow or rather made a really big impact in my life even though i've only known them for abt 1 - 2 years... yeah.. They are both also really beautiful people. inside and out. I'll miss them, when i'm not around anymore.
I'll stil be popping by once in a while, so i hope to see them when i do. I would like our freindships to transcend CYF, but they have no time, Its the dreaded O level exams lah.. maybe after their exams i'll give them a call and ask them out.. haha.....
Anyway, its almost time to pack up and leave. Blog ya later.
posted by Marcus at 11:45 am
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