Check out the song...... its the song that speaks to me the most now. that i can really relate to. check it out if u have the time, u'll love it and u'll also understand how i'm feeling more by listening to the music.
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Artist: Staind
Album: Break The Cycle
Title: Epiphany


Your words to me just a whisper
Your face is so unclear
I try to pay attention
Your words just disappear

'Cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said

So I speak to you in riddles
'Cause my words get in my way
I smoke the whole thing to my head
And feel it wash away
'Cause i can't take anymore of this
I wanna come apart
And dig myself a little hole
Inside your precious heart

Cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said

I am nothing more than
A little boy inside
That cries out for attention
Yet I always try to hide
'Cause I talk to you like children
Though I don't know how I feel
But I know I'll do the right thing
If the right thing isn't feel

Cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said