been roughly a week since i posted anything..
haha been busy lah.... so yah.......
Feeling lonesome tonight. as i was telling Cassandra. i feel as if i'm not complete, i'm missing something in my life. i'm missing someone in my life, not something, its someone. i'm missing the love and companionship of a female human being......
I know some of you that red this are gonna mail me or talk to me abt this lah, WATEVER okay... don't bother cause i'm not gonna listen. i mean seriously i don't think u guys know what i'm going through or what i'm feeling.....
anyway, as i was saying, right now, it seems that i'm walking around without an aim or a purpose... or at least i can't fulfil that purpose.
i've always known i was put here on this earth love. yet, i can love the friends i have around me, yet i still feel this big emptiness in me. so i'm thinking that i was put on this earth for the pure fact that i'm supposed to love certain people... and i have so far.... Elena and Shao Bing. which i can say that till now are the only 2 i really loved a lot...... that i truly loved.... when i was with them, i felt complete, fulfilled... no emptiness... with the others, amelia, charissa, jenilyn... nothing at all... honestly, the relationships with them were pretty short and when i stop to think... didn't really mean a lot to me.
right now.. its back to emptiness.. doesn't take a genius to figure out why yah?
so i'm searching.... for that someone....
a wise man one said:" don't go looking for love, cause you'll never find it, let love find you."
i don't believe in it, cause i get the feeling that i shouldn't be waiting for it, cause it'll never come...
i pray a lot to god to help me fill this void, and my answer from him, is to go out and look, open your eyes and look at the people around you, the people that you meet, and you'll find her.... its just words i came up with to describe the feeling, he really didn't say that lah....
anyway, that's how it is right now.. just unfulfilled, incomplete and empty. that's how its is right now.........
in a word, lonesome.
haha been busy lah.... so yah.......
Feeling lonesome tonight. as i was telling Cassandra. i feel as if i'm not complete, i'm missing something in my life. i'm missing someone in my life, not something, its someone. i'm missing the love and companionship of a female human being......
I know some of you that red this are gonna mail me or talk to me abt this lah, WATEVER okay... don't bother cause i'm not gonna listen. i mean seriously i don't think u guys know what i'm going through or what i'm feeling.....
anyway, as i was saying, right now, it seems that i'm walking around without an aim or a purpose... or at least i can't fulfil that purpose.
i've always known i was put here on this earth love. yet, i can love the friends i have around me, yet i still feel this big emptiness in me. so i'm thinking that i was put on this earth for the pure fact that i'm supposed to love certain people... and i have so far.... Elena and Shao Bing. which i can say that till now are the only 2 i really loved a lot...... that i truly loved.... when i was with them, i felt complete, fulfilled... no emptiness... with the others, amelia, charissa, jenilyn... nothing at all... honestly, the relationships with them were pretty short and when i stop to think... didn't really mean a lot to me.
right now.. its back to emptiness.. doesn't take a genius to figure out why yah?
so i'm searching.... for that someone....
a wise man one said:" don't go looking for love, cause you'll never find it, let love find you."
i don't believe in it, cause i get the feeling that i shouldn't be waiting for it, cause it'll never come...
i pray a lot to god to help me fill this void, and my answer from him, is to go out and look, open your eyes and look at the people around you, the people that you meet, and you'll find her.... its just words i came up with to describe the feeling, he really didn't say that lah....
anyway, that's how it is right now.. just unfulfilled, incomplete and empty. that's how its is right now.........
in a word, lonesome.
posted by Marcus at 12:06 am
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