i hate this month and i hate birthday's....
i'm happy for the guy who has the birthday, but if i don't get you anything, don't blame me.
all birthday's bring to mind are the fact that everybody else got something except me. yeah sure got stuff from parent's.
my friends? didn't get me anything this year, or last year for that matter... u'd think that after 3 years in CYF you'd expect more people to remember its your birthday.
but no..... just a few messages and sms's that's all..... fine, i know i sound materialistic and all that, but still... i mean.. wah lao...
i hope you get what i'm harping on abt......
to you maybe its a small thing lah, but to me, what hurts is the fact that most of my close friends don't remember at all..... i mean, it sucks loh...

it just sucks lah.... don't know what else to say.... its sick and disgusting and i sucks... that's really how i'm feeling right now......
that's how i've been feeling the past few days.... ever since my birthday.......

now u know why i hate birthdays and why i hate this month.......

Well, 3 days after my birthday and it dawned on me..... i'll never get attached ever again, i'll forever be single.... haha most guyss would be thrilled, but somehow it doesn't appeal to me..... hehe... its probably the way i am.. i'm one of those that are supposed to get married and have a family. haha.... sigh......
oh bother.... haha.... life's cruel, sometimes i wonder why God's doing this to me, letting this happen.... why no matter how much i pray, nothing seems to happen.....
life's a bitch man.. life's nothing but a bitch..... i hate this life.......

And so passes another birthday, i'm a year older. i think i'm wiser. a little more mature, contrary to what other people might say. i think i am, so i am.
how'd i spend my birthday? u know, people go out have parties with friends and have a good time, whereas for me, i was at novena church at 7 am for mass, the after that had to to P&W for the sec 3 confirmants, from church... it was alright lah, wasn't that ad... just damn tired in the end...

thought we could finish at 2, so made plans to go play pool at pool haven, but then, sherwin needed some music for this thing called the "sin-bin" so yah, we cancelled plans and stayed back to play, then after that played for mass also, for which Sean and i were totally unprepared, cause it was last minute... oh well... didn't even get the chance to get to know the confirmants man....

but one thing that some of the cathecists did was to announce that it was also my birthday, so yah, basically not much lah, just a birthday song loh.. a few happy birthday's gfrom some of them.. haha. ended off the day with Sean at Pasta Mamma's at the new United Square... now, that was a good dinner... Now, the morning after, i'm having dierhea....... sian loh.... aha... and no school lah, this week, study break, gonna get down to cleaning out my room to make it habitable, cause i'd like to move in. yeap yeap.. exams in 2 weeks... sian......

oh, and after long careful deliberations, i've decided to leave my love life outta this blog, so if anybody ever develops the curiosity and wants to know, ask me.
so now this thing is now sorta like a catalog of what's happened in the days of my life...... Gosh that sounded cliched and corny.......
haha