Hey People! Had a very interesting Conversation with Daf's Friend yesterday night. haha, well, details are in my ICQ History and most of which i shall not put up here casue well most of you are too young.... hasha no lah, just toolong to put up lah, basically just chatting with her and she's a rather interesting person with a wild and active imagination. why do i say that, cause for most of the etime last night, she's was just making up stuff and i was too tired to bother, so i played along lah. haha..
Then when i called daf this morning to ask her abt her friend, Daf was like going "Huh?" so i came online to my ICQ to check my history... haha make sure that it all took place instead of in my dream... I do hope that i'll be able to meet this friend of Daf's cause she is an intersting person, and she sent me a photo of what she's led me to believe that its her, and well, the person in the photo quite chio lah, but dunno whether her or not. haha yah so i have an ulterior motive, but she is rather imaginative. haha quite fun lah actually.
Well, on to today, what happened today, well, nothing. haha, suppose to go for class, but never go cause i wanted to sleep, the afer that went to school do stuff lah, run here run there, played a little bit of badminton. now my forearm aching like nobody's business man... haha.. even typing this is tiring it out, haha so yeah this isn't gonna be very long. After that went down to CYF, got there at abt 9.30, just in time for the last 20 mins of the video on the pope, then went over to macs, didn't get a cahnce to really hang out at macs, cause everyone had to go back already... yeah, tomorrow shiok, going to a lunch buffet.. haha.... at Grassroots club.... looking forward to tomorrow actually. good to actually hang out with my choir people cause we rarely get to hang out with each other.
Not many people online tonight, so i'm left alone here with my thoughts again. I wonder if i'll get to meet the girl from yesterday night... and well i'm wishing she was online now to make my night more interesting. Yeah, it was sorta refreshing to have something out of the blue happen. haha, as u gather not much really happens to me, at least not this kinda interesting stuff lah. it should happen more often... Haha.....
I'm left to wonder now, how do i look? in the world, am i ugly or not good looking? or Ok? or good looking? yeah, i actually do wanna know what people think of how i look, when it comes to physical appearances, i am very insecure.... I wish sometimes i'd look like a movie star or some hunk that everybody thinks is cute... u know what i mean lah, its just one of those things lah.... Just been feeling quite insecure lately, mostly attributed to the fact that most of the time i'm like the invisible quiet guy that no one notices and nobody asks out... yeah..... that's pretty much what my life is like, being alone.. not like i'ma loner by choice, just that after a while cause of living that kinda life, it just grows on you and becomes you, that's what happened to me, as much as i don't wanna be aloner anymore, i dun really have a choice if people don't wanna include cause they think i'm weird or different, and because of that they don't wanna include me into their "circle"
Personally i feel weird asking to be included, u know what i mean, its like they're doing someting, then u ask, what u doing? then after that they ask u if u wanna come along, i feel weird doing that... its as if they ask me cause they're being nice and they don't want me around at all loh........ then again it might just be me lah... on the bus back just now was sharing with Daf that i missed the times when it was just the 2 of us hanging out with each other. I'm just so comfortable with her, at ease, and dun have to watch my tongue and all that, can just say what is on our minds knowing that nothing will be taken to heart... haven't actually had a good conversation with her in a very very long time.... ever since she got attached to evan, its as if she's drifted away. I'm not jealous, but just feeling neglected, but of course naturally, school and evan take priority lah. so yeah.. just saying that i miss her... Oh well, Sigh.....
guess that's pretty much it for the night..
Night guys
Then when i called daf this morning to ask her abt her friend, Daf was like going "Huh?" so i came online to my ICQ to check my history... haha make sure that it all took place instead of in my dream... I do hope that i'll be able to meet this friend of Daf's cause she is an intersting person, and she sent me a photo of what she's led me to believe that its her, and well, the person in the photo quite chio lah, but dunno whether her or not. haha yah so i have an ulterior motive, but she is rather imaginative. haha quite fun lah actually.
Well, on to today, what happened today, well, nothing. haha, suppose to go for class, but never go cause i wanted to sleep, the afer that went to school do stuff lah, run here run there, played a little bit of badminton. now my forearm aching like nobody's business man... haha.. even typing this is tiring it out, haha so yeah this isn't gonna be very long. After that went down to CYF, got there at abt 9.30, just in time for the last 20 mins of the video on the pope, then went over to macs, didn't get a cahnce to really hang out at macs, cause everyone had to go back already... yeah, tomorrow shiok, going to a lunch buffet.. haha.... at Grassroots club.... looking forward to tomorrow actually. good to actually hang out with my choir people cause we rarely get to hang out with each other.
Not many people online tonight, so i'm left alone here with my thoughts again. I wonder if i'll get to meet the girl from yesterday night... and well i'm wishing she was online now to make my night more interesting. Yeah, it was sorta refreshing to have something out of the blue happen. haha, as u gather not much really happens to me, at least not this kinda interesting stuff lah. it should happen more often... Haha.....
I'm left to wonder now, how do i look? in the world, am i ugly or not good looking? or Ok? or good looking? yeah, i actually do wanna know what people think of how i look, when it comes to physical appearances, i am very insecure.... I wish sometimes i'd look like a movie star or some hunk that everybody thinks is cute... u know what i mean lah, its just one of those things lah.... Just been feeling quite insecure lately, mostly attributed to the fact that most of the time i'm like the invisible quiet guy that no one notices and nobody asks out... yeah..... that's pretty much what my life is like, being alone.. not like i'ma loner by choice, just that after a while cause of living that kinda life, it just grows on you and becomes you, that's what happened to me, as much as i don't wanna be aloner anymore, i dun really have a choice if people don't wanna include cause they think i'm weird or different, and because of that they don't wanna include me into their "circle"
Personally i feel weird asking to be included, u know what i mean, its like they're doing someting, then u ask, what u doing? then after that they ask u if u wanna come along, i feel weird doing that... its as if they ask me cause they're being nice and they don't want me around at all loh........ then again it might just be me lah... on the bus back just now was sharing with Daf that i missed the times when it was just the 2 of us hanging out with each other. I'm just so comfortable with her, at ease, and dun have to watch my tongue and all that, can just say what is on our minds knowing that nothing will be taken to heart... haven't actually had a good conversation with her in a very very long time.... ever since she got attached to evan, its as if she's drifted away. I'm not jealous, but just feeling neglected, but of course naturally, school and evan take priority lah. so yeah.. just saying that i miss her... Oh well, Sigh.....
guess that's pretty much it for the night..
Night guys
posted by Marcus at 12:55 am
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