Nothing much has been going on recently.....
Nothing much has changed.....

Still feel the same way about the same person, unfortunately i can't do anything about it...
Still feel the same way about choir, won't change till i get a break which is unlikely.

Feeling really tired now. played soccer today... yeah...

Have a crappy day tomorrow... lousy morning class and i'm also short on cash.... talk about a nice way to start the week...
BAH.........

Feels as though my friends are all disappearing one by one...
What to do, everybody else has other commitments.. and i guess they are more important so i shouldn't be one to complain.. it was just an observation i've made recently...
Yeah.. same old lonesome feeling... I envy the couples around.... i envy all those who have found their special someone.
When you go out to town, they are all around.. it gets to the point that it actually makes me sick... yeah... oh well, when i was attached i think i made a few ppl feel that way too.. . what goes around comes around i guess...

Risk...... Love is a risk... risking your heart, risking your friendships.. risking everything you know in your life for that one chance to be happy... to be truly happy with someone by your side sharing all your joys and sorrows.
Surprisingly, despite the huge risk involved, i get into it, not with fear, but with hope.. its an extention of the friendship, and thus making it grow into something else...
something better, something more intimate, something closer... of course you can get that with friendship, but its on a different level... strange how it works out, both good and bad, happy and sad..... I miss it.......