The feelings of loneliness and feeling unwanted aren't really around anymore. I guess i just wanted to feel like i was needed, wanted. yeah...
Due in large part to Darren, Ben, Sebastian and last but definately not the least, Aileen. The 4 of them have really done a lot in making me feel accepted and wanted. Especially Aileen.
Though i don't see her around very often, everytime i see her i'm greeted by a warm smile and a big hug. Which honestly works wonders in improving how i feel. Darren, Ben and Sebastian, i'll usually be hanging around those guys. they're pleasant company and can crap with them. bonded a lot with them during CYF camp. Something that really touched me was something that Sebatian said when i told him i wouldn't be around for a few months.. it went something like this " we're gonna miss you man, can't crap as much without our leader"
Reading that, well it just really made me feel like i'm a part of something, like i'm wanted around by a few people. Thanks Guys! you have no idea how much you've helped me.
I'm not saying that the rest of CYF hasn't in pat helped, but its jus that these 4 people that have really impacted me in the last few weeks.

During the BBQ at kirstin's grandma's place. its was precisely these 4 people that were around most of the time, that i talked to the most, whilst everyone was mingling, Darren, Ben and Sebastian were with me cooking the BBQ food and when Aileen came, she hung out with us. Thanks for the wonderful company guys! Really!

After that, well i guess i've been in a really good mood lately. yeah, i can't garauntee that the loneliness won't come back, but i just hope it won't be too bad next time round cause i have them as friends. There's really nothing much else to say.

Today's entry is in tribute to Aileen, Sebastian, Darren and Ben.
Thanks guys for being angels in disguise!