God, i miss her so much....
When i wake up, i fight the urge to message her.....
when i'm about to sleep i fight the urge to message her again....
We should have gotten together later.. after her O's.....
We should have....now its too late to turn back time...
What's been done has been done....
She hates me now, cause of myself.
in my eagerness to want to be part of her life, to want to know how she's doing,
i puched in where i shouldn't have. crowded in when she needed space and time....
i'm just so stupid......

now i'm left missing her, missing the times i spent with her.
missing those precious moments we had together.
missing those moments when i had her in my arms.
when i had her hand in mine.....

Now everything around me just seems so wrong....
everything in this world just seems wrong....

I spend the day fighting myself, not to message her.
to give her space..... i fight myself and my urges.
i want to be with her. i want to be able to love her.
now i can't........ i've lost that chance......
If life is all about second chances, then i hope mine comes soon.....
i don't know how much more i can take....
i'm dying inside, slowly but surely....
i feel part by part of me is being killed off.
each part of me is being put to sleep....
soon i'll just be a shell.....
an empty hollowed out shell of what i was.....
until a day when she should come along to restore me.
if that day ever comes.

I miss her... i really miss her so much...
please lord, stop my pain, my agony.....

they say time heals all wounds....
yet time can make or break feelings.....
they may grow stronger, they may fade.
I pray ours grows stronger....
time is now the test....
a cruel test it is......

i miss her......