Its X'mas eve, and i only have one person on my mind......
i only have one thing on my mind.......
Is it my fault that i miss her so much?
i can't help it.

If i could, yeah, i'd move on and stop feeling so crap,
but i'm trying to move on and i still feel like crap.
Is it my fault that i still feel so much for her?
i can't help it.....

I have so much i want to say to her, so much i want to tell her.
Yet i'm torn between my choices.
To take that risk or not?

I've so much to say, yet, can't say.
What am i to do?
Let god handle this?

Will i ever get it all out of my system?
not ever, not till i get closure.
its tough.......

I still can't help it, i miss her so much.
Its silly, its stupid, why should i put myself through so much pain for her.
Perhaps, she isn't worth all this pain and torture.
Perhaps she is.....

My heart and mind's torn between possibilities.
Having so much conflict between the 2, i don't know what to listen to anymore
My heart's always directed my every move.
Never really used my brain much.

I should have really.....
Then i wouldn't be where i am now.
I'd probably be in a place that i'll be happier.
Probably i'd be happier.....

Would it change a thing if i said i know my faults?
Would it change a thing if i said i'd change?
Would it change a thing if i asked for a second chance?
Would it change a thing if i promised i'd work on my faults?
Would it change a thing?
Would it?
I'm lost, i'm cold, i'm shivering.
Trying to be strong, trying to move on.
With chains on my feet, i'm trying to walk.
its tough........ its tough........ its tough........