Pain

How much pain can a person bear,
How much sadness can a person carry.
Those are the question that run through my head.

On the inside i'm crying,
On the inside i'm hurting.
How long more will these emotions thrive in me?

I'm void of Joy, Void of love
Filled with Sadness, filled with pain.
"Pity Me!" I cry, yet all they do is ignore.

My life crumbles before me.
My relationships dissolve before my eyes.
My friendships dissappear when i need them most.

I'm left with a hollow shell of what i once was.
I'm left with a heart torn to pieces.
I'm left with nothing to call my own.

Love's lost, never found
Love's left, never to come back
Love's gone, for good.

Now i cry "Leave Me!"
Now i cry "Ignore Me!"
Alas i cry "Forget Me!"

I am worthless,
I am loveless,
I am but me, friendless......

Sorrow is my companion
Sadness is my friend
Pain is my brother, one that i know too well.....

Back from CYF Camp 2003...
well, camp was alright, wish we had more fredom to roam around the place to get sometime alone, unfortunately due to certain reasons and circumstances, we weren't able to do that
My group, was grp 4, The Guards! heh Damn cool man, had Amanda, Sam Tay, Felix, Darren, Benji, Kirstin. Yeap, Got to know them alot better. uncovered cetain talents within each person...

Miss Amanda a lot man... long time never saw her, until camp. was good talking to her again. haha... yeah....

unfortunately, Nick, Tee, alot of the seniors weren't there.... miss the old crowd, the ones i could hang out and clique with.... sigh....

I hope that in some way i've managed to touch the lives of the people around me. sometimes i think i do too little....

Happiness is in the hands of those around you

i think its true, really really true. if a person puts you down, ignores you or insults you, there's no way you can feel good, no matter how confident you are about yourself.

Someone told me that she needed time away from me, oh well, i'm inclined to give it to her, i haven't been the nicest person or the most comfortable person to be around recently and, if you're reading this, you'll get all the space you want.... probably all the space you'll ever want or need away from me.... good bye for now, till the time you're ready to talk to me again and if that time never comes i'm glad i've got to meet you and to know you. i'm talking like its all over, well, i very well maybe the way its going now.

Don't be sad cause its over, Be glad cause its happened

Thanks Jobeth for that quote. You've no idea how much that quote has helped.

It seems as though there's very little for me to say these days.. i don't know whats going on man...

The sessions at camp we fantastic. learnt a lot and reflected a lot.. tried seeing myself, and only saw part of me and i didn't like what i saw...
i've changed a lot, changed for the worse, and not for the better... And i believe that these are the changes that have cause the problems in my relations hips with the peope around me...
gotta do something about that...

Anyway i'll stop here.... need sleep. have long day tomorrow and i'm dead broke.
oh well, life isn't meant to be easy.....

Night guys