I've been told that my blog is rather emotional. well, i guess it is. a lot of things that i don't say out are written here in this humble blog.
So many things that idon't express, that i don't show, i write here. In a sense its a catalog of the stuff i go through. The really Big stuff, i write here.
My problems, my tears, my heartaches, my pains, my joys, my happiness, my laughter, all here in this blog. In a sense. this blog is my best friend.
I wonder what would happen if i never had the blog. Nervous Breakdown? perhaps...... *shrugs* we'll never know.

I've been trying to write a book recently, but i don't know where to start. Everythings jumbled up and when i try to pen it down, everything disappears. Irritating. Oh well.

Went for a FareWell dinner tonight, cause Miss Chang's leaving for melbourne. going to miss her a lot. She's the one that sparked my musical passion, she's the one that started me on my way of learning music and falling in love with music. she started me on the arts scene. Yeah, She means a lot to me, and not only me, but almost everybody in the Voice Ensemble. I hope she stays safe there and that she'll always come back and visit.

Dinner was good. Food wasn't fantastic, but it was the company that counted. Its been a while since i've actually hung out with the VE people. Especially Shao Bing and Melissa.
something happened tonight that made me think. Melissa asked me a question. If another girl came into the picture, would i still hold on to Shao Bing? Honestly, i don't know how to answer that. if someone came into my life, yeah, i'd be committed to the person, but there'll always be this part of me reserved for Shao Bing, cause she's the only one thats come closest to being THE ONE. In fact, she might be THE ONE, just that the time isn't right yet. Guess i'll never know till it happens

6-9 months till i go into the army. What stikes me the most isn't the army or the training, but 1 person. Shao Bing... Somehow I think that its okay if i don't see everybody at all during my time in the army, when i can get nights out, but Shao Bing is the one that i'll call first. To ask her out, to check on her, to talk to her. Stange that that's my 1 and only worry when i have to go in. I'm going to miss her.... really going to miss her.

I guess i'll just have to cross that bridge when i come to it.

Man, i got work tomorrow. guess i should be getting to bed.

Good night