My mind's been racked with indecision....
So many factors to consider, so many possible outcomes....
Most of them very bad.....
Maybe my mind is just playing tricks on me.....
Can i take this risk?
Should i ask?
I may not have anything to lose.....
Won't be around for much longer anyway,
but this extend not only this period of time, but what i decide to do will decide the outcome of something that would last me a lifetime.
It sound really drama doesn't it?
i guess in my mind thats what its like.
Yet, as bad as the acting may be in soap opera's....
There are some truths into how the characters react.....
If only i had some hint as to what her reply would be....
a hint as to how she would react....
that would make it so much easier, but right now i'm walking blind.
I still have time to consider, i still have time to think about it.....
I don't know what to do......
I can't afford to ruin it.....
I can't afford to make anything worse......
Yet with somethings, risks have to be taken......
Can i afford to take this risk?
Can i afford to perhaps lose something thats still precious to me?
I don't know..... i really don't.....
Racked with indecision.......
Brain's exploding from trying to make my choice.......
If only i had a hint........
if only i had some guidance.......
if only i could see the future.....
if only.....