Valentine's day, well, was alright......
went for dinner with a few friends, then chit chatted till like 1 am.
it was fun in the mellowed out sort of way.
got to know a few of them better.

a month and day more. sighz.

you know,
It seems that on special occasions, i can't help but think of you.
strange isn't it? i spent the whole of v-day missing you.
to be honest, i still do love you.
to be frank i still do miss you.
but it seems that from what i've read.
i guess the reverse isn't true for you.
you probably have someone else now.

you know i never meant to hurt you.
all i had wanted to do was to love you.
to let you feel love. i hope you felt it.
cause i did, and i still do.
i don't know if by telling my i've changed in a bad way,
is your way of telling me that you much preferred the old me.
well, i'm on my way to finding him. its been going well.
slowly i'm recovering part by part.
i said you'd see me again when i find me again.
i never lied to you before. you will.
when i'm ready, when i'm healed, when i'm me again.

i still don't know why it happened.
if it happened cause you heard from someone about me.
cause you heard something bad. i hope you'll tell me what it is.
maybe i can clarify.
It seems as though the air between us really has to be cleared.
so that i can see you clearly again, and that you can see me clearly again.
i hope we'll get to do that soon.
we are still friends aren't we?
i hope we are. i really do.

i guess there isn't much else to say for me.
you know everything there is to know about me.
you know i will never lie to you.
you know i will never intentionally hurt you.
you know that i still love you.

should one day you get lost.
should one day you get hurt.
should one day you feel pain.
know that i am always here for you.
my arms always reach out to you.
my arms always open to embrace you.
my lips always ready to kiss you.
my ears always ready to listen to you.
my heart and soul always ready to love and comfort you.
why you may ask,
it is because i love you.