You tell me that you've found someone new.
You can say that there isn't anything between us anymore.
I hope you are happy with this someone new.
I hope that perhaps he is better than i was.

Everytime you seem to break my heart anew.
Bringing new tears to my eyes just when i thought i was getting out of my misery
You know just where to stab to make it hurt the most.
Why torment me? Why do i torment myself?

When all i ever intended to do was to make you happy.
I wanted to treat you well. I wanted you to feel loved by me.
I wanted to share the joy i have in my heart that was because i had you in my life.
I wanted to make you happy.

You had hurt me so much that day. You hurt me even more each and everyday that passes.
As these thoughts and feelings within get left unresolved. They only grow more painful each and everyday.
If you really want to be my friend. If somewhere deep within you, you still love me, then help me end this pain.
Resolve my feelings, answer my doubts, help me find my closure.

Don't you see what's happening?
I'm trying to move on, but by not answering those questions i had asked so many times,
By not allowing the both of us to actually talk about what had happened.
You're holding me here, a victim of torment, a victim of a circumstance that both of us had created.

I hope you'll stop running from what's happening between us.
To be honest, When i mailed you that email, i told you i was going to move on.
I tried, very very hard. I tried a few times after that. but when i thought i was getting somewhere.
All i found was myself back at where i started.

Now i'm asking you, If you had really loved me. if you weren't just using me.
Help me out of this cycle of self-destruction.
Usually i don't drink till i get high. Usually i don't drink at all.
i've been drinking more often lately..........

If you really loved me, if you still love me, even just a little, then help me.
Don't hurt me anymore, help me find closure.
As a final favor, as a final act of what we once had, help me find my closure.
Help begin the healing process, help me get over you.

I swear, i still love you. I believed you were the one for me.
My heart still tells me that you are.
Yet the world tells me you aren't.
Help me get out of this vicious cycle of self-destruction.
Please, as a friend. I still would like at least a friendship to remain.
Not what we have now. not this coldness.........
Help me find closure......
Help me to stop loving you........

I can never hate you, no matter what happens.
I can never speak a foul word against you.
I can never talk bad about you still.
Especially when i jusp to defend you whenever a foul word against you is spoken.

If you asked me to die for you, i still would.
I still would jump to save you when you're in trouble.
Perhaps, i can never stop loving you.
Perhaps i'm stuck here.
Please help me find closure.
At least tell me the truth.....
At least don't avoid the questions.....
It might haunt you the rest of your life.
I know its haunting my life now as it is.
Just a haunting memory, a painful yet joyous memory.
A faint remnace of the perfection i once held in my arms.