Thoughts

No confinement.. surprised me alot.... thats why i can type this now.
as much as possible i'll try to update weekly. so keep reading....

Training's been tough... well, porbably cause all the excercise is getting to me....
haven't worked out in so long, then finally make me work out, wah... shock to the system man...
now my whole body's aching like crazy....... when it got to a point when i was abt to give up...
my sergeant said the darndest thing.... "when you feel like giving up, don't, think of a happy place, think of a person that makes you happy and you'll find the strength to carry on" i tried that.... the first person, the first face i saw. It was yours.... Yes Angie, it was yours.....

I don't know why.... the first week's always the toughest, cause you're still adjusting, and just when i was about to break down and collapse on the floor. You gave me the strength to go on..... You may not love me anymore, somehow i hope that isn't true.. that somewhere you still do feel for me, and not as an ordinary friend.
Please Angie, pray for me, that i'll find the strength to keep going..... Please Angie, it may not sound logical, it may sound sentimetalistic, but if there's anyone in the world besides god that can get me through this intact, its you...... in a sense i'm begging you, please be there for me...... please angie.... love me again.......

I don't think i'm making sense now..... somehow, booking back into camp is tougher than going in.......
feel like crying... cause i didn't get to see you.... cause you didn't even look past your file to see me......
in camp.. its just so much tougher.... the fact i dun have my phone with me.. i can't talk to anybody....
that you just seem so out of reach............. *sob sob* i miss you. so much